The Right Thing at the Wrong Time

Personally, I love life.  I fought for it, and I never stop feeling compelled by its demands upon me.  At a point in my life when I was totally pushed up against the wall with my health and the thin wire of life, I bought into what is almost a spiritual cliche:

Not my will, Thy will be done….[read more]

It became clear that my main job is to listen – and then to act on what I hear – without condition.  This is, I know, a tall order for many people.  And it never stops being that – tall order – for me either, but during my health crises I became clear for myself that there is no other choice.

If you’ve been in my zone for some years, then you’ve watched me go through many doors, take many big turns and changes and generally not hesitate to shake it up.

Every time I do that, however, it is tempting to lose my faith in the direction that speaks with such a clear, steady and often demanding voice.  And in fact, with the last change I’ve made to my yoga schedule, and the launch out into providing some high tech yoga options, I’ve received some feedback about disappointments and sense that people aren’t even clear about the change I’m making.

This is a move that has me walking in faith.  Not seeing clearly the ground beneath each step as I take it.  There is a sense of falling with every single step.  And yet, if I look retrospectively back at all the steps I’ve taken, I see there was a ground – that there kept being the ground – even when by all logical standards and common sense, the ground was missing.

I am called to teach, do music and be my own high tech pioneer. That is clear to me, and the form of how that’s going to manifest, is always changing, as I attempt to answer the voice of the Divine Will.

As you know I have slowly cut back on doing evening yoga classes, workshops and concerts.  If your career is cause for you to work at night, then you know there are certain hazards that come along with that timing, with respect to your circadian rhythm.  There are natural times for rest, and the night is one of them!!

Timing is everything.

And if we do the right thing at the right time, it is not the right thing at all!

So I know I am destined to teach, yoga and lifestyle health, but am so clear that a relentless night work life is costing me many things, most importantly a view of the sunrise!

Since the last 12 Week Challenge ended last week, I’ve begun a new practice of getting up before or with the sunrise and getting to bed earlier.

I’m using using the evenings to wind down, be with family, and prepare methodically for the next day.  Less and less is the Divine will supporting my night owl tendencies of the past years since I had my son and was engaged with work nearly every night!

Also, I’ve shifted my emphasis from teaching classes (which I love, don’t get me wrong) to working more personally with yoga coaching clients.

I am so clearly meant to work with people in this way, and am so moved by the experiences shared there, and the risks clients take in the privacy of this forum.